Since I have decided to move out of searching, yearning and so on, I have been trying to make myself busy - constantly planning my entire schedule.
This week for instance, I am fully packed up till Sun and even next monday! It somehow feels kinda tiring to know that I got so and so to fulfil and meet up and everything. And yet at the same time, it also feels kinda good to catch up with friends and do this and that.
I don't know how I exactly feel as I go through all of these. I feel numb.
What am I putting myself into?
Even now, as I am stuck in somewhere in Singapore, I am kinda losing it. I feel like having a binge and just have more and more. And I just don't know what is going.
I need sleep. I need some mental energy to put this through.
BRING ME TO LIFE.